True worship is a life of obedience and out of that life will flow songs of worship, which will delight the heart of God.
i do hope that every aspect of my life is pleasing to the Lord... that it delights the heart of God... sometimes, i feel so unworthy... i feel as if i have disappointed the Lord during certain moments of the day... i feel as if i haven't done the things that He had wanted to be done... i am most guilty of such deeds i suppose... joining in on some gossip here and there... oh how i repent and try not to do so each day... oh how tough is it... cos even just having that thought, i have sinned...
but i am grateful... i am grateful that the Lord is merciful... that He is gracious... that each time i repent of the sin, He forgives... and He helps guard me so that the next possible chance i might not sin against Him... though i still do falter, He is faithful in His pursuit of me... how much more could i ask of the King of kings??? how much more could i ask of my Father... when He knows best...
There are some things we don't have to pray about! We should already know God's desire before we even ask.
was reading the chapter call "what hinders true intimacy?" in the book Drawing Near by John Bevere... and it speaks of how Balaam, a prophet of in the Old Testament, who was gifted with a great gift of prophesy... although he is anointed with such spiritual gifting, he was enticed by money and recognition... and so when the enemy used this against Balaam, through the elders of Moab and Midian and other men of greater position and honor... Balaam seeked the Lord about the situation as to whether he should go with these men to curse the Israelites... in my mind i was thinking... how stupid can Balaam be??? the Lord has said that the Israelites are His chosen people, and through them many will be blessed... how can you ask God for permission to curse His chosen people???
there and then, the Lord revealed to me... that this is how most of us are living our lives... there are certain things that we balantly know that it is against the plans of the Lord with certain options opened to us... things that we ought to know well enough not to ask God for... i mean... it would be like asking God when i see a non-Christian guy whom i fancy for permission to date him... (not that i would to so... haha...) this is like committing spiritual suicide... but then, the Lord told me that, there are balant things that we know we must not do and need not ask about it... however, there are the "grey" areas that we try to squirm our way around... and there and then, i knew that the Lord was not talking about the things He said we must not do... He was talking about the things that He is asking me to wait.. the things that He has already said not now... i am guilty of asking God for some things and even when i have heard Him say wait... i still ask God to give it to me, day after day... but that's not what He wants from me... He doesn't need my prompting, cause He said wait... He wanted me to WAIT... and i am not obeying... what we must realise is that when we covet something contrary to God's will for us, God will often give it to us; His answer is according to the idols resident in our hearts. He does this to recapture our hearts. this is stated in Ezekiel 14:4-5... i have gone through a few such phases in life, and of course seen a few such instances... all i can say that i did not realise it to its fullest revelation until today... when God opened my eyes and revealed to me... thank God for this revelation... i pray that i will not fall into this rut of disobedience again...
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a furture..." - Jeremiah 29:11
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