My eyes are focused on You alone...

By realizing the reality of our Prince within us,
we are never bothered again by the fact that
we do not understand ourselves,
or that other people do not understand us.
The only One who truly understands me is the One
who made me and who redeems me...
It is a tremendous freedom to get rid of every kind
of self-consideration and learn to care about only one thing -
the relationship between our Prince and ourselves.
_{- Oswald Chambers, paraphrase}

How true these words are... When we become so consumed with ourselves, thinking only about how can we improve ourselves, what can we do to make ourselves feel better etc. We become so self-absorbed that we do not see the very real needs around us, and what our Prince can do...

I have been so selfish... I mean the ramblings I had and the inner struggles I had a few days ago would not have happened had I not been so self-absorbed... I had been too inward looking... Finding faults with people when there aren't any... Besides, they had not done me any wrong, it was all in my imagination that they are picking on me... That they are not happy with me in this way and that... I did not fully comprehend why they said what they said, and been overly sensitive to the things said... My over-sensitivity in what people say about me or to me is a faulty self defense mechanism I have within me... If I am this sensitive to the feelings of those around me when I say certain things, then I would have been more Christ-like... But I am not... *sigh...*

Anyway, now that I have learnt the importance of having my every thought, from my first thought in the morning to last thought before I go to lala land, and every other moment in my day, focused on God. I believe I would be less self-absorbed and more aware of my surrondings... I would definitely be more at peace with myself and not so easily agitated... I know it would be delightful in God's eyes and I know this would definitely draw me closer to my Prince... He is just waiting for me to draw closer to Him with every moment of my life... When I take one step towards Him, He would be taking two more steps closer to me too... Because my God is a faithful and wonderful God...

"It is only when the waters are perfectly still
that they can reflect the glories of the heavens."
- Eric Ludy

"Only when our minds and hearts are restfully focused on our Prince
can we become a reflection of His strong, steady, and unshakable peace"
- Leslie Ludy