Jeremiah 29:11
I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out--plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. (MSG)
How true this verse is... After the recent "inner turmoils" I have, I realised that I was simply not trusting God... I had all the head knowledge, I can quote bible verses accurately, I can teach the Word of God truthfully, yet I keep forgetting His providence for me... Yesterday was a revealing day for me... Realised all the lies that T.E.O has placed in my mind, the deceptions in my heart... Next time I feel upset, not only must I bring it up in prayer and petition to my Father, I must also clarify matters with the other party... Must not let T.E.O win... I was just to self-centred and not God centred when I was thinking about all these... *Sigh* Well, at least through all these, I have learnt a new lesson and am sure God is happy too... *BIG GRIN* =D
Lord I thank You for Your faithful mercy
All my footsteps have been guided by grace
From this moment on my heart will praise You
Lord I love You
Lord I love You
Mercy, mercy
Goodness and kindness
Love and forgiveness
Mercy, mercy
It's been mercy all the way
You have loved me with a great compassion
You have spared me from the pain I deserve
Here's my heart O may it bring You pleasure
Lord I love You
Lord I love You
Mercy, mercy
Goodness and kindness
Love and forgiveness
Mercy, mercy
It's been mercy all the way
You have loved me with Your love unending
You have touched me with Your kindness and grace
So unworthy of Your kingly presence
Yet You beckon me come
Yet You beckon me come
God's mercies are just so wonderful... They are new every morning...
The night was simply amazing! Leading worship for network congregation meeting is tough and scary... And though we only have the people over at TCT, it is simply petrifying... But God's hand was in all of these... Throughout the rehearsals we have had, I always had a problem with the end of the lines for some of the songs... And then there was the constant nagging in my head telling me to not sing too high, not go out of pitch etc... I was basically sorta freaking out... I was like, why did I even volunteered... Gosh! But God came and I could just feel Him... The feeling was electrifying... He came and brought the peace into my heart... And like Dale was telling me, "Don't worry about the technicalities, just worship God." or something like that la... Can't really remember what exactly he said... But as dinner came to an end, and after receiving prayers from Melissa and Charmaine, I felt this peace that stopped all the butterflies in my stomach from fluttering... God was in our midst...
When we sang the first song to settle down the congregation, I was just focused on one thing... Worshipping God with all my heart, my soul and my strength... I was just standing in front leading the congregation as God lead me... So when we went to the fast songs, I could sense God prompting... He wanted His children to be like little tots... Have that simple faith and to have simple fun... He wanted His children to sing, dance and be silly... He wanted us to be free of cares and just worship and praise Him simply... This worship leading thingy is actually quite fun and addictive... Haha... If given another opportunity in other times, I won't mind leading God's children to worship... Though I had my fears, His love just dispelled it all away... It was no longer me... It was God... He is the captain of the ship and I was just following His directions... Truly humbling experience... After congre, people came and thanked me... I was embrassed, I mean who am I that they came and thanked me? It was not me they should thank, but God! It was not I who made it fun, but God... I may have been funny and slightly awkward leading the congre, but I am definitely not the reason why worship was good or fun... God allowed it to be... So praise be unto God...
He is ALWAYS there, to set us FREE... So that EVERY MOVE I MAKE I make in Him... Because He is GOD OF WONDERS, WITH ALL I AM I'll come before the Lord and worship Him... For only He is able to COMPLETE me...
No comments:
Post a Comment