God is really amazing and faithful...
(Duh statement I know... But ya He is!!!!)
My King never fails to provide me with me needs...
He has time and time again blessed me with abundance...
It is really true...
When we serve Him faithfully, giving Him our spoonful of faithfulness...
He will bless us with His shovelful of blessings...
His Providence
Just a week ago, I was panicking...
I had to pay my school fees last Monday and I don't know where all my money had gone...
At that point of time I was thinking I won't be getting my scholarship this year, cos the letter has yet to come notify me of anything...
I was panicking thinking I won't graduate by 2006... Haha...
So after a bit of fretting and a lot of prayers... (On my own and with support from my Spiritual sisters...)
I went to seek alternatives like paying in installments etc...
On Monday when I went to ask if I could make payment on a later date or pay by installments, I was told that there has been an extension of dateline for fee payment... (I had till that Friday...)
Then I asked about the scholarship and stuff, only to get answers like the board is still pending their decision...
So after bugging my school's Academic Admin...
I went off to wait... And pray some more...
Friday came and I was told to ask about installment plans at the finance department...
I inquired about the installment plan, explaining that I had done so previously...
Then a lady (think she the manager or supervisor) came and asked me if I had applied for the scholarships...
She then took my student pass and went to check her records of awardees...
To my pleasant surprise I had been awarded a scholarship of $1500...
It may not be much, but it is half of my fees already...
This means I had to pay another $780...
I asked about my pay... (Which incidentally have been taking forever to payout...)
It was quite a sum and tomorrow I simply need to pay about $200 to clear my fees for this semester...
I really thank God for His providence...
Time and time again, He showers me with His wonderful blessings...
Time and time again, He shows me that He is so ever faithful to His servants...
Time and time again, He allows me the priviledge to testify of His goodness...
Time and time again, He sees me through each moulding process...
Thank God that He allows me to tap into His power, His deliverance, and His abundance...
Thank God that He only answers our prayers with the best... (Or as Des would say, "the bestest of best"...)
Psalm 145: 16 The Fast Psalm 25:4 I did it... haha... Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord Final Thoughts Simply need to come daily to God to seek His providence in every aspect of our lives...
"You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing."
"Show me Your ways, O Lord, teach me Your paths"
I did the fast... haha...
I think I am crazy...
It was not so much about me wanting to know if he is the One...
It was more like I wanted to guard my heart...
I started out the fast telling God to let the feelings fade out if he is not His plans for me...
Right now the feelings have yet to fade, but I guess it is too early to tell...
Anyway, I did it not because I want a relationship out of it...
But because I know that my control over this area needs growing...
In the past, my heart would flutter in an instance if the guy is nice to me...
Now, I thank God for moulding me...
I am having a lot more control over this area now...
At least I can now see that the guy is genuinely nice to everyone not just me...
(something I would have been blinded to in the past...)
After the three days, I am coming out of it more at peace...
I am not anxious to get an answer...
Cos if it comes it comes...
If not then I just have to be patient and seek His plans...
Saw him yesterday, went out as a group...
No funny feelings...
No special feelings...
No awkwardness either...
I am probably not ready for God's answers...
But no longer am I anxious about it...
No longer am I troubled by this issue...
I did not enter the fast with any expectations...
I simply told God that I want to fast to hear His voice clearer in this aspect of my life...
To take out my voice from this aspect from my life...
The fast has taught me something...
Before the fast, I know that it is in God's hands....
After the fast, I still know that it is in God's hands...
The only difference is now I am not holding on to my own minute understanding...
But am now patiently awaiting God's reply...
Because I know that God knows everything I want to say before I even start the first sentence...
Psalm 139:4
If we ask, He will definitely open up the treasury in heaven and pour forth His blessings in our lives...
If there is a need, we simply need to call upon God to provide on a daily basis...
Because He is Abba Father, He will provide...
I am a daily testimony to His daily providence...
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