scripted babblings: mixed emotions

why is life more complicated as we grow older? things are just not the same from those olden days of childhood memories...

prayer meeting last night was good... i cried but dunno why really... i think i need a break... a break from everything in life right now... need to find a place of solitude with God... how i wish the retreat is this month, but wadeva... ~~i wanna shut up and shut out the life i have now~~... but i know i can't... why have things gone this way? is my life not right again? oh shut up u evil voice in my head and get out of my mind!

i am not feeling at my peak today... my heart is growing hard towards stuff... why does wad people say still affect me so? searched my heart and realised that there is no truth in wadeva he said... he don't really know me... and for him to make such a comment... knowing it simply irks me... wadeva... it is just probably because i have don't really like him and am sometimes rather mean to him that's why he said wadeva he said... well, from this day forth i shall be nice... even if it means hard work... i shall be nice...

i am sadden by the news i received this morning... ~~sigh~~ Lord give me Your guidance... i shall have solitude on sunday... after my driving lesson... i shall not organise anything for the next few weeks... don't wanna be bothered by what people say... shall just join whatever activity that others invite and consider it case-by-case...

i dun wanna care! i simply wanna live my life now and not be bothered by what other people has to say about me...

why am i in such a depressive mode today? argh.... shall think of happy thoughts... i will get my driver's licence by the 26th May... i will pass my driving indeed... and i shall go make my website now... come visit it and leave your comments la...