Busy busy....

Am I a busy person? I think I am not... But others think I am... I think I am simply just a very enthusiastic person... Who simply love to help others... When I say I'll do it I'll do it... But others around me just see me as a super woman... Gungho and super-onz... Able to face all challenges... But they don't see me in my weakest... They simply see what they choose to see... When they see that I am "busy"... They don't realise how free I am... When they see that I am "free"... They don't realise that I am actually in my most busy period... I have given up time and time again trying to explain myself... If they know me, they know me... Well, at least I know my spiritual "mummy" does...

Last night had a breakdown... Felt rather accused... It all accumulated and now looking back... I am feeling bad that I seemed to have allowed myself to push everything onto Mel... Allowed T.E.O to put in my mind that I am not good enough etc... When she didn't even mean it that way... It all began with the issue of the compasses... Then started talking about the girls... How irresponsible they can be at times... So as the talk progressed and Mel asked me about the things I needed to get doing I simply lost it... sigh... But had a talk with Mel on the phone and I know that she won't reprimand me... She simply is concern if I am going to exhaust myself... Talking to her released and prevented deception from creeping in... I know I need to learn to let go more... Say "No..." to unnecessary commitments more... I need to learn to see things in God's perspective more... All things are permissible, but not all things are beneficial... So I guess I simply need to learn to look at things which are beneficial to my growth more than simply saying yes to everything that comes along the way... Need to learn to weigh my priorities better... I am learning... But along the way, I would probably still get myself into unnecessary situations... Haha... But that's just me la... Too generous with my yeses... Tomorrow TP... Gonna get my driver's license... Yeah... Then I need not take the slow-poke bus... The horrible MRT... Or trust in cab drivers who do not know their way and then over charge me... With my license I'll probably spend more time with my parents... Driving them around... So watch out Singapore... I'm on the road... Make way!