just wondering...

have been wondering... how is it that i could be so insensitive at times? how is it that i could sometimes neglect the feelings of those around me and just do wad i wan... is this a sign of weakness? *sigh* shall remember that in my weaknesses He is strong.... have also been wondering... should i just have a simple party at home or BBQ by the beach? the pros of having it at home... - i will pack up my house! (finally...) - i will save a lot more money cos my mummy can cook! - i will be able to make use of the front and back spaces of my house... - i will be able to have a karaoke session if the guest wanna sing! - my fridge will stock up and be fully utilised for once! the cons of having it at home... - i will have to clean up my house alone... the nightmare!   (mummy said it is my own pa sa... i totally agree with her...) - i will have to make sure everyone leaves by midnight...   (HDB rules of lowering music after 11...) - i might not have enough seatings...   (but they can seat on the steps...) the pros of having it at the beach... - i will not need to worry about cleaning up! - i will not need to worry about seats! - i will not need to worry about time! - i will not need to worry about noise level! the cons of having it at the beach... - i will spend a lot of money catering and stuff... ( will go broke man...) - i will probably lose my friends cos they wander too far off... - i will probably get unwanted guests... - i will probably have a problem getting everyone home by a stipulated time... - i will probably have a problem going home... - i will probably not have enough food... oh wadever... i shall have it at home... if i can find the stupid bbq pit i have chuck somewhere at home i can have a bbq at home too! hmm... i guess 21st birthday party for me is a milestone that i wanna celebrate... and i guess i am too much of a ceremony person to forgo a celebration such as this... argh... i dunno... the guest list is rather long... hmm...

and here's a cool invite Lydia did for me.. so cool...

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