Protection... Guarding... Accountabilty...

Somehow after going out today I have to say I agree with the book... I think going out with a member of the opposite gender in a group takes the strain out of talking to anyone person at any time through out the time spent together... I did find the idea weird at first, what I mean to say is it is just not very me... I have always found myself rather comfortable hanging out with guys no matter what context it is, be it one-to-one or in a group... I don't see it as a date, I might be deceiving myself but to me it's like hanging out with my brothers... That's just what I do with my brothers too...  So I have not seen the problem or "dangers" before... But today, I found it really assuring to have my spiritual sisters around... Though it was just coffee and stuff, and I did not really act anymore differently when I hang out with other guys or gals, I was glad to know that my sisters will be there for me to protect and guard me...

What I am trying to say is that... I would rather be more careful, than to tread on thin ice... I feel that although I may not think about it consciously, in my sub-conscious overactive mind I might be thinking it even if I think I am not... (Am I making sense?) But anyway, I think it is better to be safe than sorry... I know myself (I think) I know that when a guy is nice to me in the slightest sense, I would think him to be a nice guy... Even at first I might not like that person, but then I would go home and mull over it and think that he is nice and stuff, then I would think I like him in a romantic sense, when I actually don't... Haha so silly of me... But I tend to do such stuff... So I realise today that going out like with the protection of my sisters can guard my weak heart... I wouldn't think that person is nice to me cos I would see how he is nice to the others too... Haha... So yeah I prefer going out with the protection of my spiritual sisters...  (",)

I think it is important to guard each other and help each other grow... So yeah, I think I am doing good... But then again I think I think too much... Well, I am only using 5% of my brain... So yeah... I am one contradicting silly girl...