you just WASTED my time!!! my friend's too!!! ARGH!!!

Gosh I can't believe how dense certain people can be... And I can't believe how some people say they will serve the nations, but find it so difficult to fund others who are going for missions almost immediately... To that particular one person, I think you know who you are, if you happen to chance upon my open diary, I just ask that the Lord has mercy on you... I recall you rising to your feet during the altar call Senior Pastor gave that service when he was talking about our church's new dream... I recall you going down on your knees and say that Lord I will serve the nations, I am here use me... Yet when the opportunity comes a knocking, you hog on to the sponsorship form I gave you although you knew the next day that you would be unable to contribute... I am not so much angry with the fact that you did not fund the missions, but that you waste everybodies' time... I had given you the letter almost a month back, yet you said nothing about your financial inabilties and in fact asked me about it, though I was relunctant to give you one... I am upset that you were so inconsiderate... And because of the stress of the $400 shortfall I have at the moment, I am reaching my tolerance peak... You should thank God that I did not flare up at you... You should also reflect on your irresponsiblity... I am most probably being very judgemental right now, but I have checked my heart and know where it stands... I am just typing this out so that I do not keep it in my heart and let it brew... I harbour no ill intentions, but I really want to do God's work but I have my limitations too... I have my personal financial difficulties too, so it's not just you and my financial situation is a family problem... My parents are bankrupt and I have been constrained by my school timetable to work, so I have not been earning as much I had possibly could... But I am giving whatever I can to enable God's work as it is not mine to say... All these are God's blessings in my life... What I have today is inmaterial, as it has been blessed unto me by God... He can grant me all these material goods, He can also take it all away if I am not a good steward of it... I am trying to be a good steward of God's possessions... And that means everything from finances to time, from material things to things we may not see... What you did today was a was of my time and my friend's time... The time we spent waiting for you to come and pass me that BLANK sponsorship form which I could simply taken back from you when I come back from missions had you told me you couldn't help, could have been spent more fruitfully... And to think that you had the guts to come 30 mins late!!!! Hello! This world does not revolve around you... So please for goodness sake, wake up and be responsible... You wasted my time and my friend's time, both before and after we met you... You wasted our travel fare, that place you chose to meet wasn't the most convenient for us, for you maybe but not us... Such a waste of time... Time I could have used to prepare the paperwork for travel insurance for the team, time I could have used to get ready stuff for the trip, and time I could have spent studying, preparing for my coming semester... You may be in NS now, but that doesn't mean that you can waste your time, or others... Whatever, I do not see a point in getting upset... I was angry that you wasted my time, and could jolly well have flared up... I did not do so as I did not think it would have made a difference anyhow... How lame could you get? Well, it is not for me to say, but I ask that you would search your heart and may the Holy Spirit convict you...

But Lord, despite this I know that You would provide because You are Jehovah Jireh, my provider... And Lord I am sorry that I got upset and probably judgemental... Sorry Lord...