haha... was reading this monologue, as i prepare for my audition prep tomorrow morning... somehow, it spoke to me... well... not totally, but it sorta set me thinking...
well... some of the stuff that have been in my mind the past few weeks were of me being too buddy-buddy with the boys... probably that's why i don't get the kinda attention a girl should get from guys huh? somehow i am not the kinda girl that guys would wanna protect... i can appear so strong and independent, people tend to think that i can fend for myself and need not be protected... haha... well, i think, guys are somewhat scared of me... how so huh? i think they don't see the possiblity of me needing protection... so they need not take care of me... and the fact that i am so freakin' loud, it is somehow, overpower them??? i seriously dunno what's wrong... people just don't see me as someone that needs protection... it's like i always hear from guy friends that so-and-so looks like she needs someone to protect... i guess guys just like girls who just fits into the typical quiet sweet demure girl that looks like she could play every part the damsel in distress... well i guess i simply don't fit the bill huh?
the myriad sides of me has yet to be seen... someday, somewhere, someone would see pass the strong persona and see me the way my Creator see me... the beautiful Princess - the daughter of the King of kings... the child of God... and that's all that he needs to see to love me the way my Lord does... =)
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