Rainbow after a storm... - 12/17/2004

Whenever I go on a mission trip I always have to ask myself... Why am I doing it... Why am I really there... What is the agenda... What is the purpose... I may not be able to answer them all, but as I serve, I get my answers... New revelations each time... This trip was so different from that of last years... Somehow, this one is more heartwarming, tugging at my heart's strings more...

To serve the nations and build gateway cities... That's the church's new vision for 2005... Faith, Unity and Novelty... That's the Youthnet's vision for 2004... And this trip we've managed to cover all these aspects more or less... Why so? Well... The team step forth in Faith, to territories unknown to us, asking for guidances from God... The trials we faced during the trip tested our faith level even more...

I mean looking at it, it was really a test of our faith... Prior to the trip we had some miscommunication with our connecting agency in the other nation... Then when we reached there, we had to extend the trip... From the original 5 days we extended it to 8 days... Because of that, I missed another fundraising event that I was supposed to help out... Hopefully the organisers won't be too mad with me... Ops... Being thrown on the streets of Indonesia to get Macdonald's with Yvonne, who is as clueless as me, is really a test of our faith...Then there was the food poisoning episodes that brought the team down to half the size... Gosh... The stupid MacDonald's Big Macs... Don't eat them when you are in Indonesia...Then there was Siti Cat Xiao Gua... I don't like her, but the rest of the team found her so pitiful and took her in... I don't like her still, but I tried... She apparently is paralysed from half way down her back, but the team is believing that in 7 days she should be back on her two feet again, after the nerve stimulating injections...Then there was the test of Unity...I guess it wasn't so much a test, but the team was very united in all that we did... As much as we co-depended on each other, we also had to learn to be independent of each other at times too... Especially of our only team member who speaks Bahasa Indonesia... He is the best though, helping us whenever he can... We co-depended on him, and had to learn to be independent without him... I think I did okay... Picked up a whole new vocab of BI in those 8 days...

Then the Novelty would definitely be the fact that we fed 2 villages, eating food cooked with the river's water... The water is really yucky looking... 2 million people bathe, do their laundry, excrete their waste into this river... And to think we all actually dared to eat the food prepared with these waters... *My stomach churns* But we did not get food poisoning from these food, but MACDONALD'S! Really something new...

I think we served well, and received loads from this trip... I went there filled with trepidations, because at the poorer village we went to, the houses and pavements were built on stilts that looked like they would break anytime soon... Yet I overcame my fears and shifted my focus onto the adorable children... The teenage Ayu (who does not have enough money to continue her studies), the sweet Kiki (who's father passed away last year), her brother Rama (who is sooooo CUTE!!!), the village head's daughter Ayu (so sweet and adorable), Iman and his sister Indah (adorable kids)... And the wonderful thing about them is that they are so simple and everything else is a novelty to them... Though it would definitely have helped that they do not swarm us, push and fight among themselves when we give them sculptured balloons, show them their photo in the digicam... They would MOB you... But it was fun... Haha... That was what happened at the poorer of the two villages we went to feed... The village head looks like a hobbit from LOTR... So farnie... But he is a very nice man... The people of his village showed their gratitude on their faces... They cried, smiled alot and said thank you to us in very many ways... They are just one amazing bunch... Asking for the littlest of ingredients, but whipping up a simple but delicious meal...The second village was bigger and slightly more affluent than the other one... The village head here looks like he came out from Pirates of the Carribean... It was as if these two villages reflected some kind of movie... Haha so funnie... The village head is a very C character (if you happen to know what D.I.S.C. is)... He gave us a list of food to purchase for the banquet, a very long list with something like 20kg of fish, 30 chicken, loads of spices, 30 coconuts etc... During the distribution of the food package, he had a list he followed and that person must come out to collect it... If not we can't move on... Amazingly systematic man... There were more children in this village, and I had my two shuai ges to help me crowd control... Though Melissa was like the "Um Um" cult leader of the village... The story goes like this: She started uming to a boy, he um back she found it cute, tried to find him back after lunch so she started uming at every little boy she saw and soon the whole village's children start uming... Very hilarious... The kids here were not as terrible as their parents, who would fight with the children getting sweets and ballons... They would be cutting the queue to get sweets for their little ones who were to shy, though a loving act on the parent's part, the way they asked for it was not very nice, spinning me around to get my attention (argh!!!) The children would keep to order because of my two shuai ges, they the two slightly older boys of the pack of children, probably about 10 or 11 years old... They are the best... And very fast runners too... Haha... When we left, they ran along the river bank to chase after us, they would often trip over roots or something as the tide was coming in and they couldn't see very well what was in the waters... Then they eventually just jumped into the river... Very adorable boys... They had a very sumptuous, delactable banquet too... Amazing these people are...

Talking about them, makes me miss them... But seriously, right now in my mind, I would like to propose a sponsorship of some kind to allow the children to continue their education after their primary school education ends... I know what it means to be unable to continue your studies because of the lack of money... I went through a rough period like that in my life last year which almost denied me a chance to continue my studies... I have been on scholarships and bursaries to see me through my studies since I was in Secondary 4... That was 4 years ago... Am still on scholarships and bursaries now in my tertiary studies... God has provided me an opportunity to continue my studies... I feel it is time I do something for His kingdom's children... People like the teenage Ayu and Kiki... That is one thing heavy in my heart now... Don't know how to start, or where to start... Apart from Prayer... But need to start it ASAP... As Soon As Possible and will Always Say A Prayer for this project... I know God would make a way... He always does!!! :)

The icing on the cake:When we finished the banquet at the poorer village, taking the small boat back to mainland, we saw a rainbow in the skies... It was as if it is a stamp of God's approval on the work that we had just did in His name...

prayer requests..

I am really excited about the trip to Indonesia... However, I think I've overworked myself preparing all the paperwork and stuff for the trip... Spent the whole day in the office again just to get all the last minute preparation done... Feeling so tired... Is it the weather or is it me? But I am feeling really cold... I really need all the prayers right now... Think my body is not taking all the running around well... The lack of appetite does not really help either... Yet this is really the time when God works His miracles within the team first, allowing us to see His goodness and then when we serve Him, we will remember that He would do the same for the people we are serving... I enjoy serving God, really... Yet sometimes when I do not find my rest in Him, and continue working and working, I begin to tire out... The flight is early tomorrow... Gosh... I wonder I would be able to wake...

God is really good though... Despite all the minor and major hiccups we have had so far, He has shown us that He will see us through it all... I finally gotten everything done... Yeah!!!! Yesterday, the team worked hard together and packed all the old clothes, bought the kids party stuff and exchanged money... Though I still had a whole load of paper work to be done... Hah! Then this morning went to office to get the final things in and done... Thought I wouldn't be able to make the volunteer passes already with everything in the office breaking down, the computer, the printer, the laminating machine... Though the computer and printer resurrected after some prayer and technical support from the wonderful TYS staff, the laminating machine is DEAD!!!! But God sent an angel to pass me empty tag sleeves to put the things in... WoW and I thought I would not be able to create the tags... Well, God is simply too good... Bought the last minute things too... And I dare say, I think I am prepared enough logistically... Now need to start packing my personal belongings...

But first things first, please keep the team and myself in prayer... Thank you... Here are some prayer pointers before we fly off thurday morning... We definitely have a lot of grounds to cover and we might end up extending the trip by about 2 - 3 days... There were some minor hiccups along the way of preparations, and certainly some miscommunication between the agency at the other end, but I know God would help smooth things out... So please pray that we can finish what God has placed in our hearts to do... Thank you... And also, some of the team members are falling sick, in fact there are a few already sick, so please keep them in prayer... Here are some prayer pointers for you to pray for us: 1. Health - please pray for good health for all 10 of us, some are sick so please ask God to heal them. 2. Unity - please pray that the team would be united as one body and also with the other Christians over there. 3. Protection - please pray that we will be protected from the evil one's attacks 4. Strength - please pray that we will have the strength to last throughout the whole trip, the strength to move loads of things (ie rice, clothes etc.) 5. Wisdom - please pray that we will be wise with what we say and do, so that we wouldn't offend the locals... 6. Discernment - please pray that we will be able to discern who are those whom God has sent to help, the suppliers, boatsman, drivers etc... 7. Courage - please pray that we will have the courage to go way out of our personal comfort zone...

Thank GOD!!!

God is really good... Although there was that whole hoo-ha over the lack of money issue I had a few days back, God always prove to be way beyond my understanding... Though the people I've appraoched haven't realli the ability to provide, I thank God for their heart to even try their best to show their support financially... There was this one group, they may not be the most loaded bunch of people around, but they chipped in a little here and a little there and made their pledge out to be $20... It may be a really small sum of money from a big group, but they tried to provide... They had the heart to... That was saturday... God provided and drew the amount needed to be raised down by to almost $200...

Monday was even a better day I suppose... God provided this particular person to aid in His work... God is really good... This person pulled the gap to just a hundred plus left to be raised... That night another friend provided another $20, and I know this person's current financial situation is rather tight, but he still had the heart to provide for God's work...

Today was the best I think... There was just so many things to be done... So many areas of work to cover... And I was still $100 short... But as I tabulated... Counted all the monies together from everyone, there was enough to cover up that $100 shortfall I had... God is REALLY REALLY GOOD!!!! He is simply amazing...

Right now I am really tired, gotta get some more work done... Less than a day more to go before the departure... Friends please keep me in prayer... The whole team and myself... There were certain hiccups as we prepared... But I believe God would smoothen things out, and provide a way out of whatever situations that may arise... What can I say, God is just simply too good...

you just WASTED my time!!! my friend's too!!! ARGH!!!

Gosh I can't believe how dense certain people can be... And I can't believe how some people say they will serve the nations, but find it so difficult to fund others who are going for missions almost immediately... To that particular one person, I think you know who you are, if you happen to chance upon my open diary, I just ask that the Lord has mercy on you... I recall you rising to your feet during the altar call Senior Pastor gave that service when he was talking about our church's new dream... I recall you going down on your knees and say that Lord I will serve the nations, I am here use me... Yet when the opportunity comes a knocking, you hog on to the sponsorship form I gave you although you knew the next day that you would be unable to contribute... I am not so much angry with the fact that you did not fund the missions, but that you waste everybodies' time... I had given you the letter almost a month back, yet you said nothing about your financial inabilties and in fact asked me about it, though I was relunctant to give you one... I am upset that you were so inconsiderate... And because of the stress of the $400 shortfall I have at the moment, I am reaching my tolerance peak... You should thank God that I did not flare up at you... You should also reflect on your irresponsiblity... I am most probably being very judgemental right now, but I have checked my heart and know where it stands... I am just typing this out so that I do not keep it in my heart and let it brew... I harbour no ill intentions, but I really want to do God's work but I have my limitations too... I have my personal financial difficulties too, so it's not just you and my financial situation is a family problem... My parents are bankrupt and I have been constrained by my school timetable to work, so I have not been earning as much I had possibly could... But I am giving whatever I can to enable God's work as it is not mine to say... All these are God's blessings in my life... What I have today is inmaterial, as it has been blessed unto me by God... He can grant me all these material goods, He can also take it all away if I am not a good steward of it... I am trying to be a good steward of God's possessions... And that means everything from finances to time, from material things to things we may not see... What you did today was a was of my time and my friend's time... The time we spent waiting for you to come and pass me that BLANK sponsorship form which I could simply taken back from you when I come back from missions had you told me you couldn't help, could have been spent more fruitfully... And to think that you had the guts to come 30 mins late!!!! Hello! This world does not revolve around you... So please for goodness sake, wake up and be responsible... You wasted my time and my friend's time, both before and after we met you... You wasted our travel fare, that place you chose to meet wasn't the most convenient for us, for you maybe but not us... Such a waste of time... Time I could have used to prepare the paperwork for travel insurance for the team, time I could have used to get ready stuff for the trip, and time I could have spent studying, preparing for my coming semester... You may be in NS now, but that doesn't mean that you can waste your time, or others... Whatever, I do not see a point in getting upset... I was angry that you wasted my time, and could jolly well have flared up... I did not do so as I did not think it would have made a difference anyhow... How lame could you get? Well, it is not for me to say, but I ask that you would search your heart and may the Holy Spirit convict you...

But Lord, despite this I know that You would provide because You are Jehovah Jireh, my provider... And Lord I am sorry that I got upset and probably judgemental... Sorry Lord...

How could I forget to thank YOU?

How could I forget to thank the greatest person in my life? God Almighty, Christ Jesus, Holy Spirit... My triune God... My only source of blessing and strength... Well God has been so good... So so good... He has seen me through all of my days... He has planned everything so wonderfully... He has been so good that I have nothing else to say but WHAT AN AMAZING GOD I have!!!! He is just wonderful... Awesome and very gracious...

My Lord Almighty is just so good... He has blessed me so abundantly... All the way since I accepted Him and I believe way before I even knew Him... God has blessed me with grades just well enough to make it into Fairfield Methodist... That year's cut off was 244... And I think I am the last none primary school fairsian to make it in... Well it wasn't that good cos I was the ONLY one in that class not from Fairfield Primary... Gosh... I never felt the need to be accepted until then... I thought that being a Christian would help me fit in so ha... I accepted Christ... That wasn't a bad thing, but I guess my intentions were rather wrong... But God still love me no less...

He blessed me with wonderful friends... Blessed me with Christian mentors like the Christian Ministry Staff I was all the while close to... Blessed me with a scholarship when I had financial difficulties at home during my Sec 4 year... Blessed me with the ability to go to New Zealand, with the majority of the fare paid for by the school... I had a blessed life in Fairfield...

I had a lot of help in junior college too... Scholarships and awards... Though I wasn't doing that well in school but my lecturers were all so good to me... But I think not doing well enough to get into local U wasn't that bad... I mean He has allowed me to pursue my passion for acting...

Now that I am in LASALLE-SIA, I am doing so well in school that they have always nominated me for scholarships and bursaries... I have favour in my lecturer's eyes... They enjoy my work... Though sometimes I do exasperate them... But then again, they see my diligence too... These are all blessings from God...

Tonight when I did Front-of-House duty for W!LD RICE... I was offered a proposal to come work for them as an ad-hoc Front-of-House Manager... Whoa... God is just too good... I was just lamenting about how I need a job, and there I have a job offer for my next school vacation!!! WoW!!! God is just TOO GOOD!!!

Thank You Lord Father... I just can't thank You enough... And I just want to testify to Your Love!!!

Love... Thanksgiving... (So Christmasy)

"The essence of any great relationship is love." "Loving people means treating them well, making sacrifices for their benefits and helping them to achieve their needs and their dreams."_{- Phil Pringle, You the Leader}

I show my love for different people in different ways... To my family I show them that I love them by buying food... I will buy things that they like to eat and feed them... I buy ice cream, and other traditional food to my parents work place and give it to them... I will call back home and buy dinner for my brothers if they are at home... That is my way of showing I love them... But it may not be the most effective I think... I try to spend time talking and letting them into my life...

I show my love for my friends by meeting them, spending time with them and try to meet their felt needs... I will keep them company if they need to study when I don't... I would go out and meet them even if it is rather out of the way... I will buy stuff to cheer them up, though I may be broke... I will chase after the bus that whole bring my friend home to hold the bus so she could board, though I am not taking that bus...

But I realise that I may not be the most affirming person on earth, cos I hardly do tell them how much they mean to me... I hardly tell my family I love them.... I rarely tell my friends how much I appreciate them... Though I do keep them in my prayers constantly... I guess that's the least I could do...

I may be the mushy expressive crazy Regina but sometimes it is easier typing it out than saying it out... I know that this may not be the best place but seriously typing it out is alot easier to say it out... So here goes...

To my Daddy and Mummy: I don't think you will be reading this... Well not a chance I guess... But just wanna say how much I love and appreciate you... Working those long hours are not easy... Thank you so much for giving me and my brothers the best you could possibly give... Words cannot suffice what you two have done for me... Though you scold and discipline me, I know it is because you love us that why you even bother... Thank you.. (",) And I am still praying that you will come to know God...

To Edric:Though we always fight, you have been a great brother... I know you also want the best for this family... Thank you... I want to talk to you more, you have been so busy, we hardly even talk... You are my little brother and I also want to care for you... So yeah don't ignore me can? Love ya... I am also still praying that you will know God... Don't let money be your god... Let it be your slave, not you its slave ah...

To Edwin:Thanks for the late night talks, the questions about God... Though you may not know it, but I really think that you would come to know God soon... You may be sick, but I want you well... So I will continue praying for you... No matter how many doctors you see, only the Healer of All is able to heal you... So I pray you will come to know God soon... Thanks... (By the way, when can you curl my hair???)

To Melissa my spiritual 'mummy':Thank you for always being there... Thank you for your sacrifices and everything... I know you love me as you would your daughter... If I were your daughter you would have to haven bore me when you first came out of your mothers womb... Haha... Well, really just want to thank you... You are my superwoman No. 1 afer my real mummy... Thanks for bringing me back those tough years... Love ya... Muacks...

To Desiree:Thank you for being so patient, so supportive... Though there are times I might have exasperated you, you would always return the exasperation with a smile... Thanks for being such a wonderful sister in Christ!  Thank you for putting up with my nonsenses... Love ya... Muacks... (By the way you gonna teach me to make tiramisu anot?)

To Yvonne:My witty crappy sister in Christ! Thank you for providing much laughter and spice into my life... Thank you for listening on our long 198 bus rides... Thank you for being so accomodating... Thank you for the support... Thank you for putting up with my bimbotic side that is often insensitive to your feelings and exasperate you to no end... Thank you for putting up with me... Love ya... Muacks...

To Weiying:There may be times that I get angry with you (I am sure that there are times you are with me too... So we're even huh?) Anyway, thanks for being there with me to do treasured work... I am sorry if I step on your toes again... Remind me la... Love ya... Muacks...

To Yiting:Woman! You are one of the quietest sister in Christ I have... Thank you for taming Ah-Tan's tongue when he go overboard with his teasing... Thank you for showing me patience and tolerance... Thank you so much... Love ya... Muacks... (I think you might get goosepimples if you are reading this right)

To Nadine:Darling though you would be leaving for OZ soon... Can't thank you enough for those times of support... Those energy you bring into serving God... There were times in the past that I have not supported you enough... So sorry... But there were lessons learnt... I will miss you! Love ya... Muacks... (Can you don't go?)

To Nuanyi:I've seen you struggle, seen you cry, seen you laugh... Realise that your love for God is so strong... Thank you for all these times we've spend... Thank you for the t-shirt designs... Thank you for everything dear! Love ya... Muacks... (By the way when you free to do the t-shirt?)

To Fiona:We hardly know each other... But the willingness you have to serve is very reassuring and reaffirming... I want to get to know you better... Let's grow together as sisters in Christ... (",)

To Gwen:Hey superwoman no. 2! You are one amazing sister in Christ who has no qualms about giving and serving... Enjoyed the days we spent serving at Northbrooks... Don't let it stop there ya... Let's serve Bt View together... I know you'll be sacrificing loads... But yeah thank God for you heart to serve! Love ya... Muacks...

To the BP girls:There were times when I was exasperated by you girls... But the time I spent leading you were the time I was feeling God the most... Why? Cause those times were trying time... Rushing from school in the east ot CCK in the west... Then the headache of getting the Rhema word that God want to speak to you about... You girls were my first cell group that I lead and though I am not leading you all anymore... I know you all will always have that special place in my heart... Each of you... Elissa, Jen, Seokie, Peiyi, Huifen, Huoyfen, Xinghui, Serene, Grace... (Names not in order of importance ah... You all are as important to me...)

To the BP guys:Though I didn't see you all leave, but I see you guys come back even stronger than before... Really thank God for each of you... KK you are one amazing guy... If I had two younger sisters I would want one of them to know you, the other one to know ZL... Ah-Zhong you are also one amazing guy... All the persecution you face, just show how much you love God... I thank God for you, you are a man after God's heart... The rest of you I know but not as well... But really Eugene, Niap and those I didn't get your names... I want to see you all grow into a man after God's heart... 

To the ladies in Ps Debra's Network (too many of you to name):Thank you all for being kind in your words... Your prayers during ministry time... Your gentle reminders to keep our modesty including mine... Thank you for guarding, protecting and teaching each of us younger girls... Thank you so much to see in terms of Kingdom value and not just your subzone... May the Lord multiply your fruits of labour...

To Yinghan:Thank you for being patient... I am not the most tactful person, but because of Melissa, you also accept me... Haha... Thank you for being a friend and brother in Christ... Grow stronger in the Lord bro...

To Kelvin (Ah-Tan):Though you always making fun of me, and I have told you to stop but you never once did... I thank God for you, not only because Yiting is your girlfriend, but because you are also helping to mould me to become more patient and tolerant... Thank you Ah-Tan... Grow stronger in the Lord ya?

To Jefferson:Eh bro... Thanks for being part of this subzone once... Thank you for being there as a friend and brother in Christ... Grow stronger in the Lord bro...

To Zhengyuan:Brother, you are the funny guy who always help keep an eye for me on the younger girls when I not around... Thank you... May the Lord help you in all that you do as you serve Him... Your destiny is in the Lord brother so continue to be steadfast and hungry for God... Grow stronger in the Lord bro...

To the other guys in Ps William's network:You guys are my brothers in Christ... Thank you for guarding and protecting all your sisters in Christ... There may be those little things that we may not see, but you have been so quietly doing, so thank you... Each of you bro... Grow stronger in the Lord brothers...

To Dale:I remember the times you asked me not to go Sat service because of FAW... Well, I thank God I didn't listen to you then... Now that you are back walking stronger in the Lord, I thank God for those times of trial you had... Bro, keep the faith and be stronger... Thank God for a brother in Christ like you... The world may fade away but the Lord remains... So stand firm in Him... Grow stronger in the Lord bro... ('',)(By the way your new haircut not THAT bad la huh...)

To Gabe:Where on earth did you disappear to? If I hadn't bump into you at my parent's food shop, who you have disappeared from my social circle for good? I pray that you would find God soon and stop asking all these intriging questions that I can't answer that only He can...

To the rest in FAW:I may not have been the best secretary-treasurer you have... Neither have I been the best concert manager... But I enjoyed making music with you guys... Think that's why I used to rush like mad from Marine Parade to Fairfield for band pracs on Sat evenings... Thanks for all the wonderful memories...

To Shulin:Thanks for all the gentle reminders, the knocking of heads etc... Thanks for being the other conscientious worker in class... Thank you so much... May the Lord bless you in all that you do... Remember that the Lord will always be there, we may move away, but the Lord remains the same yesterday, today and forevermore...

To the seniors, juniors and fellow mates of LASALLE:Thanks for the guidance, the patience and the willingness to impart your knowledge to me when I show I need to learn... I may be the least tactful person on the face of the earth, and might have offended you unknowingly... So I am very sorry... I thank God for each of you and may He bless you through it all...

There are many more people I can give thanks for... I may not have named each of you, but I do thank God for each of you... Friends from Church, Friends from School, Friends from Work... Etc... Too many to name and thank... I just can't thank each of you enough... May the Lord's blessing be with all of you who know Him... Those that do not, I pray that you all find Him soon... God bless all of you...

Mission Possible... Wherever we are...

I like going on missions... It opens my eyes to the world... Helps me appreciate God's blessings in my live so much more... It is an amazing time of learning and growth... I think everyone should go for missions at least once in their lifetime if they have the chance... I find so much worth serving and being of help to these unpriviledged people...

Sometimes I wonder, if I am more priviledged then them or are they more priviledged than me... I mean they lead such simple life... Though they may sometimes struggle to meet end's meet, but they seem have simpler needs... Not as complicated as my life I think... True they may have their woes and troubles... But their needs appear to be so much simpler... As simple as just making ends meet... As simple as having enough to eat... Or being able to provide an education for their children...

Though going to the rural parts of Indonesia feels like going through a time machine and returning to the 60s and 70s of Singapore, but really it is definitely an experience worth having... The simplicity of life, the reality of their needs just open so many doors for God to work His awesome miracles... I may not be able to phantom what God has installed for these people, but I know that my work and time spent serving them is definitely worth it... I know that as much as I serve God by serving these people He has called me to serve I see His love for them, they too see God's love for them...

But really sometimes missions can be done in Singapore within our community too... Going to serve in an area where is beyond our comfort zone is also missions... I think as a musician, who has never done girl's brigade before, it is really out of my comfort zone to do GB... I mean I have never done drill... Didn't really like the GB in my secondary school (cos they always fighting with us when it comes to recruitment)... So never really imagined myself as a GB girl... So it is really weird that in three months time I will become an officer... Whoa quite overwhelming...

I think my fellow spiritual sisters also very brave... My spiritual mummy was in band just like me, knows nuts about GB, yet she is throwing herself into being Captain of 46th Coy... Amazing! My spiritual sisters are amazing too! I mean look at Des... Whoa this meek girl who always have her inner turmoils... Well she is serving in GB... Look at Von... She is a GB girl alrite... But to do it at 46th Coy as an Officer... Well that's another ball game... Weiying too... She knew nuts about GB... A little about drill etc... But she is all so willing to serve... Fiona and Gwen, they maybe unavailable on weekdays at the moment, but they still try to go out of their way to try to serve... I thank God for each of them... Their hearts to serve God wherever He has called them to... Sometimes these little things goes unseen, yet I am sure our Maker of the Universe sees it and is most definitely please...

I feel that real missions need not go overseas to be categorised as missions... Going into a different ground that is foreign is also missions... Both are the same... Going to foreign land to do God's work... So yeah... You need not take a plane and fly out of Singapore to do missions... You can do it right here as long as you set your heart to love God... Cos when you love Him, you would obey His calling and carry out the task immediately... Having the faith that He will see you through... So yeah I am so totally thankful and graeful from the bottom of my heart that He has called me to serve Him... I am glad that I am obeying Him and so are those around me... It is very heartening to see everyone so passionate in serving Him... And I thank God for these people within my spiritual family...

Joshua 24:15 - But as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord. 

The church vision is that "We will serve the nations by planting and building apostolic faith communities of disciple-makers for Jesus through the establishment of cutting-edge ministries
in gateway citiesI believe that by serving where we are we are also estabilshing cutting-edge ministries... God is good all the time... And because He is so good and so real... I will serve Him all the days of my life, as long as He allows me to...

Protection... Guarding... Accountabilty...

Somehow after going out today I have to say I agree with the book... I think going out with a member of the opposite gender in a group takes the strain out of talking to anyone person at any time through out the time spent together... I did find the idea weird at first, what I mean to say is it is just not very me... I have always found myself rather comfortable hanging out with guys no matter what context it is, be it one-to-one or in a group... I don't see it as a date, I might be deceiving myself but to me it's like hanging out with my brothers... That's just what I do with my brothers too...  So I have not seen the problem or "dangers" before... But today, I found it really assuring to have my spiritual sisters around... Though it was just coffee and stuff, and I did not really act anymore differently when I hang out with other guys or gals, I was glad to know that my sisters will be there for me to protect and guard me...

What I am trying to say is that... I would rather be more careful, than to tread on thin ice... I feel that although I may not think about it consciously, in my sub-conscious overactive mind I might be thinking it even if I think I am not... (Am I making sense?) But anyway, I think it is better to be safe than sorry... I know myself (I think) I know that when a guy is nice to me in the slightest sense, I would think him to be a nice guy... Even at first I might not like that person, but then I would go home and mull over it and think that he is nice and stuff, then I would think I like him in a romantic sense, when I actually don't... Haha so silly of me... But I tend to do such stuff... So I realise today that going out like with the protection of my sisters can guard my weak heart... I wouldn't think that person is nice to me cos I would see how he is nice to the others too... Haha... So yeah I prefer going out with the protection of my spiritual sisters...  (",)

I think it is important to guard each other and help each other grow... So yeah, I think I am doing good... But then again I think I think too much... Well, I am only using 5% of my brain... So yeah... I am one contradicting silly girl...