although i was suppose to have had turn full time with this particular company, let's just term it X, i have not... which has placed me in a dilemma of whether to stay on with them or move on...
moving on is definitely an option... yet, there seems to be unfinished business and lots of loose ends to tie up on my side at X... i was suppose to compile this list of schools and its contacts... which i have yet to do... i should just settle it la... then, i have to complete teaching at a school till sept for 2 mornings... i don't really wanna move on, but i guess i have to at the end of the day... i mean, i was taken out of a project and not given any more tasks or projects... resulting in just one source of income that won't come in till october or november... will i can always look to that as savings... but, i am now surviving on what 2 other companies owe me about a total of $600 plus... plus my monthly tuition fee of about $200 plus... it is miserly... and my family's financial situation ain't helping... need to help my parents pay off stuff... i am not sure what to do... i was given an email addy with that company and the bosses said they were printing name cards for me... then after one rather bad project that i handled, which was not exactly my fault, i was practically yanked out of most projects at hand... somehow, i have a feeling that it is not coincidences... i have this strange feeling that it is simply the Lord telling me that He has better plans for me...
was down at GBHQ earlier today... was simply there to drop off some forms and collect some stuff... ended up talking about me working there either on a part-time basis or a full-time basis depending on my schedule... i am not sure if this is where the Lord is leading me... but while reading the 40-day fast devotions, the word spoke to me about the atmosphere... though it was speaking about the atmosphere in the church... i felt that the Lord was telling me that He wants me to have a new atmosphere at work... i have been under too much negative influences... i need to be refreshed and be found in a positive and godly atmosphere before my spirit man dies off... after all, our marketplace is our church and we are called to be marketplace ministers... yet, should i take up a position at HQ (where everyone is already a believer) i am not really sure where i become the marketplace minister... hmm... something to pray about... but apart from the word that spoke to me about a move... there are also other factors edging me on...
- financial situation at home needs me to have a stable income...
- they are looking for people to fill up places and i am qualified for it...
- Christian working environment, would help me become more disciplined in my daily personal devotion time with God...
- won't interfere with my serving at 46th...
- i already know the programme, just need to revamp it a little...
- might have events that would clash with certain church wide events
- it's definitely a pay cut from what i earn as a freelancer...
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