ちょうどYvonneをValerie のために。

はじめまして、レぎなです。づおぞよろしくおねがいします。
ともだちYvonneに日本語をおしえてもらった。
Valerieに日本の検査が明日ある。私は彼女と彼女が検査のために調査するようにあった。
これは日本語でblogging 私を得た。
YvonneをValerie 、私に日本語を教える為にどうもありがとうございます。

Just another insane babbling...

This is driving me a little insane... Thank God for the work and activities that would take my mind off this issue... I think I have been harping on this issue for far too long... Was talking to Val about it just now... Concluded that the desire for me to settle down is there, but I am denying it's existence by numbing my feeling to it and silencing it with thoughts that it won't happen... Why have chosen to ignore my feelings, my desire? I guess it probably have a lot to do with society's perceptions... I just feel that I am not good enough for the guys around me... I don't know if this is an inferiority complex... But I just think that I am too engross with work to sufficiently pay attention to my potential partner for life... It won't be fair if he is the one constantly giving to me and I am too busy to spend time with him etc... Hmm... My dilemma... On one hand, I desire to have a boyfriend who is a potential husband, date to see if things would work out, get married and have kids eventually... All before I turn 30... On the other hand, I don't think I am able to achieve this desire... Sigh... What to do? What to do?
Apart from the fact that I am focusing on building my career at the moment, I do think I might be ready for a relationship... Being busy with work is simply an excuse to escape from looking at reality... Oh well... I've done pretty well not being in a relationship for so long... A couple of years more might not kill me that badly... Hmm... Allow me to dwell in self pity for a moment... Sigh... Que sara sara, whatever will be will be... The Lord will work His plans...

理想与夢想。。。

最近老是觉得被爱和恋爱离自己很远。
在我忙于工作时，我似乎忽略了一些朋友，和他们接触的时间渐渐的减少了许多。
我想我很有可能是个工作狂吧。一投入与工作时，可以把一切都忘掉专注于工作，一直到完成了才会去理会一切。或许我太task了吧，不懂得怎么balance人与事吧。
我的老板成说过我是属于那种先把事业基处打好了才会去谈恋爱的一个人。回想起他那一番话，或许说的也有他的道理。
我想我那一个想在三十岁前结婚生子的欲望泡汤了。事业刚刚才起步，都还没有稳定。我觉得这一刻的我是一个不懂得付出的自私鬼，不值得爱。很多人都说，爱情来时是无法抵挡的。我想我的理想与梦想终久存在于理想于梦想，处于不可能在进期间发生的一件事。說到來，我想我只能听天由命，该来的终就戏来的。问题只是迟早而一。

Transitions..

Am going through one of the major transition in life I guess... I sorta went full time at this particular drama company, Les Thespians Drama, towards the end of June... Prior to that, I was made project co-ordinator for a couple of projects... Some how, as I continue my work in this particular company, I feel satisfied... Maybe it is because of the fact that my bosses are nice people who see the potential in me and not what I have achieved... They both have a generous spirit, giving beyond themselves... Though working for them maybe stressful at times, it is because I want to give over and above my 100% as my bosses have put in that amount of effort first... Unlike with some of the other companies I've worked with, this is one company who values their employees and seek to help them improve, and the bosses work damn hard...

Another reason could be that I work well with my one and only other full time colleague, this American Chinese Indian called Michael... (We sorta started being full-time in the company together) Though the company is not new, the concept of having full-timers besides the bosses is... It is rather amazing how well we work together... The two of us work hard together for the better of the company because we really see the sacrifices made by our bosses... Anyway, a more amazing thing is how well I click with his girlfriend Cheryl... Cheryl and I can go on forever... Haha...

Many projects are coming up and it simply spells B-U-S-Y for me... The mammoth task that I am in the process of is the cleaning up of the office-store... The place is cluttered... (Sorta like the condition my room is perpetually in...) So before Mike and I can begin using the office proper, we need to get the clutter out of the room... Thus, we have been clearing and cleaning the seemingly impossible... Because of my administrative skills, I am tasked with inventory... Haha... An even more impossible task... Haha...

Apart from the mammoth task of cleaning up the office space, I am given a few other projects to take care of... A few of which has just concluded, but the paperwork is just beginning... Also am going into school to teach and facilitate on behalf of the company...

I am busy, but at least every day is a new challenge... I enjoy the challenges my job brings... It tires me out, but I am simply relishing the moments of accomplishments... There are many plans my boss have for Michael and I, by the looks of it, we are going to be super busy in the following months... I just can't wait for the challenges that will arise and overcoming it will be sweet success...

Guess the bottomline is that some transitions are essential and in this case definitely worth it...