of late i have became an even more avid drinker of tea...
green teas, floral teas...
any tea without the need to add milk or sugar is my favourite...
and of course...
the typical singaporean teh...
from teh-o (tea without milk) to teh-peng (iced milk tea)...
well...
i just love my cuppa tea...
in fact i am sipping a cuppa now...
marks & spencers' organic camomile limeflower & lavender tea...
simply unwinding...
i dunno how to put this... but this is a feeling that has been bothering me for the past few evenings and i just simply need to vent it out before it does me too much damage...
ok... how shall i rant...
hmm... been going for auditions and not having any callbacks... been wondering what exactly is wrong with me... because of that, i've been feeling a little inferior... i feel fat and ugly... i feel as if i am being overlooked most of the time... the guys around me are my friends... but they are all interested in my friends... sometimes i wonder if they are friends with me just so that they can get to know my friends... but i don't think that is the case... it's just a depressive spirit making me feel so... it is also probably because of the many weddings that have been happening and are going to happen... hmm... or it is probably just the fact that i am getting older... and yearning to feel validated by another human being... i dunno... but this feeling has been getting me down over and over again... i simply have to overcome this... i have to stop this self pitying cycle.... Lord help me...
God created Man... Both male and female He created them... From the dust He created the male... From the rib He created the female... As we are created from the bone, women are fragile... Women need to find the body to be complete... Men need to find their missing rib to be complete... Girls are bones and needs to be protected... I need to be protected...
end of rant
been bored since my graduation... had nothing better to do than to play around with some of the programmes on my laptop... and found some joy in all of my adobe products... it is really quite fun... adobe go live... now i am able to come up with rather professional looking websites... can visit it at www.reginaelonchua.com (yap... i got myself a domain... haha... ) i must be mad... and also adobe photoshop... a sample of what i did with it below... am still exploring its endless possibilities...
it's been a while since i last blogged... a long while... so this might be long... i dunno...
it's been hmm... 72hrs since the final show for my years in LaSalle-SIA... and so far... i am sorta feeling slightly lost... but i guess as a fresh graduate i am doing rather well... i've got a few auditions lined up... starting my internship with Singapore Drama Educators Association as project manager tomorrow... for a fresh grad... i think i am actually in quite a good position...
i feel that God is indeed a good good good God... He placed me in this path that i have embarked on nearly 3 years ago... along the way... He has been affirming this decision made... He dangled carrots in front of me to keep me motivated and not lose my direction... with job offers even before i graduated... then came the disappointment to know that those carrots had rotted away... yet... i shall not lose faith... because as those old carrots get stale and rotten, God is constantly changing those carrots... i am actually quite amazed at how quickly i've found an internship... and lined up quite a couple of auditions within 3 days of my graduation... wow...
but all said... i think i still do terribly need more affirmation... though i did well for the production of Golden Child... not because i think i did... but because of the accolades that i received from the audience... many came up to me and said that my acting was superb... that they felt the manipulative sly and shrewd chinese woman in Eng Luan, the character i played... and that many wanted to hit Eng Luan... i am truly humbled... all praise be unto God... without fail i committed each and every evening show unto His hands... and He made everything work... perfectly...
with our lecturers telling each of us that with this sending off production that we each have proven that we are no longer student-actors but we are now full fledged professionals... it simply means that all of our hardwork and heart work have not gone to waste... now each and every one of us simply need to prove to this big cruel industry that we are good enough to be part of it and it should not shut us out... it should open it's big wide arms and embrace this new batch of talented actors who have just graduated from LaSalle-SIA College of the Arts' Theatre Arts course... simply put... we are well trained hardworking actors... who simply want to be given a chance to prove that we are not merely fresh graduates... so wad says you, you who calls yourself the creative industry of Singapore???
