the thing is after what pastor william was saying today during prayer meeting strucked me... Jesus has a date with me on 14th Feb... haha... so i am not dateless... :) seriously speaking... i dun fully understand this hype about valentine's day... haha... prolly because i am not in love... that's whi y i am saying so...
another thing that pastor debra said about the tactics that guys and girls use to attract each others' attention strucked me too... haha... the clarification that some people made made the listed tactics even more hilarious... haha... to think that he would think that i would read too much into what he has been saying to me... haha... gosh... i dun understand guys at the very least... and that is prolly why the oub ladies' card tag line is "the men just dont get it..." haha... well... i think it would apply vice versa... haha...
but it does set me thinking... do i give my guy friends such a comfortable friendship that they are beginning to take me for granted??? it also set me thinking why are things as they are now??? i am afterall still a girl, and i guess all girls deep inside them want to be treated like princesses... and i definitely wish to be treated like a princess... as i am afterall a princess of the king of kings... and i am getting these vibes from my guy friends that i am one of them...
sometimes i cannot help but question myself if i am simply too friendly... simply too easy-going... so much so that my guy friends are comfortable in this friendship... and the friendship is in a rather familiar state... i am confused... i dun know what to do... sometime i feel that there is a need to distant my friendships so that it wont go into the state of familiarity that i become a little confused with where the friendship is heading towards...
yet again... everything will fall into place in His time... God has willed everything to be in His time... and this is prolly a phase that i need to go through... to learn to be stronger... to learn to guard my heart better... this is an issue that i have been struggling with... i guess i allow my heart to waver whenever a close guy friend is any nicer than usual... and it is not a good thing... sometimes i just end up feeling terrible... as i hate the thought of a perfectly good platonic friendship to turn awkward... but that's just me... haha...
i like to keep things simple... to keep my friendships clearer... and it prolly is not fair to my friends... but when i sense a danger of the boundaries blurring, i would withdraw... and prolly stop talking to the person in question for awhile... which my throw my friend in question into confusion... and not fair to the person in question...
well... for the time being... my utmost important task at the moment now is to be even more familiar with my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ... i have to... i cannot allow my friendships with my friends, be it guys or gurls... to be more familiar than with God... He is with me twenty-four/seven... and my friends are only with me for at most a few hours a day... so how can my friendships with my Lord be more familiar than that of my friends??? i need to be careful who i am getting too familiar with... :)
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