Exhausted!

Camps after camps after camps... Gosh my weekends have been practically burnt up the past three weeks... And I am lacking sleep... How I wish I could lie in bed all day (*banishing the thought to the black hole, that would be sin - laziness i think)... Anyway, had almost a whole month of tiring weekends, but God has made it the most fruitful... He is just simply too good to phantom...

Then within the weeks of these endless camping weekends, there was sanctification week and the truth encounter... Boy was it a busy fortnight... But thank God for His faithfulness... At least through it all, I had managed to find my potential disciples in Eunice and Peiyi... Sanctification week was good, but the truth encounter was even more powerful... Could really feel God's presence and His love... I am just in awe...

With my lack of sleep and having taken ill... I am beginning to feel physically exhausted... Having the need to work despite my other activities is beginning to take its toil on me... I have sooo much homework to complete which seriously speaking I am in a creative desert right now and can't think of anything good to put up... I am like soooo dead... But God in His faithfulness and grace allowed me to lighten the work load that I have...

Having been placed in charge of TGIF celebrations, I was racking my brains to want to make it a successful and blessed event... Yet, with my limited resources and abilities... And with a lack of creative juices of late... Working with YH on this TGIF program haven't been the most efficient... YH had been really kind and accomodating... Guess he needs to be or else I would complain to Mel and she would probably talk to him... (*Nah... Just kidding) But now I really see what Mel see in YH... They should really get married soon la, it would be fun... Forgive me, I am just rambling on... Anyway, God offered me a big helping hand in terms of experienced successful TGIF planners in the likes of Nigel's team... They did a successful TGIF which I saw and experienced for myself... This year they are going to have an improved version of it all... Mel brought it up and as me if I would like to combine the whole thing with them... I really did not know, but thinking I would probably not pull of a celebration that would be the most fun or most economical, I accepted their offer after much deliberation with NY and Mel...

I think Mel knows the troubles I have been facing the past week... Thank God for a spiritual mother like her... I was really upset the other day after the truth encounter and I told the rest about my plans and it fell through unsupported... I felt so hurt and helpless... I had been racking my brains for an idea that would help bond the friendships and let the people enjoy themselves... Coming up with something isn't easy, and especially when I am doing it for the first time... So when ZY came with the proposal of combining and Mel called to ask me if I wanted to, I gave it some thought... Dex was saying if we had too little people might not be fun, NY was analysing the whole situation and advised me to go ahead with combining... After all, when we collect $5 from our own members we won't be feeding them lunch and everything else they have to pay for themselves... NY was saying people might not like the idea of having to play a game and forking our money from their own pockets... The $5 per person on ZY's side covers the cost of the game and there would be a buffet lunch spread after the game ends... It sounds like a better idea, after all we can also learn what to do and what not to do so we can fly solo next year... So we agreed to combine... And now I feel the load lightening from my shoulders, though I still have like a million and one things to do... *sigh*

But I thank God for His faithfulness and mercies... Without which I probably would have overworked and burnout... God is simply just too good... ;) He is my strength and comfort in times like this... I know with the combination of both subzones, we will be a better vessel that God would use for it is stated in Psalm 133:

¹How good and pleasant it is when brothers live together in unity!
²It is like precious oil poured on the head, running down on the beard,
running down Aaron's beard, down upon the collar of his robes.
³It is as if the dew of Hermon were falling on Mount Zion.
For there the Lord bestows his blessings, even life forevermore.

I know we each have different talents and abilities... Guess this is one experience that God wants me to go through to learn something out of... He knows me best... Besides there is power in numbers and I feel that they have a better plan than I did... Now to explain it to the rest of the subzone... That is probably the tough part I think, judging from the respond of some the other night...