Vulnerability

I'm seriously unsure... Confused... Stuck in this libido... Not knowing what to expect... Not sure whether I will fall...Or maintain my balance... I want out!!!! But deep inside meI know that the answers I need are on their way... Too many questions that I want answers to... But not getting these answers fast enough... Never knew I could feel so vulnerable... But now I do...

These questions keep swirling in my head... Just like a witch's brew in her culdron... Though I know it might harm me... I still long for that little bit of magic... Some spell-boung answers...Can't seem to stop it... Questions keep flashing pass... Feel as if I am going down... Don't want to be on this downward spiral...Down into this bottomless pit... I know if I'm there I'll never get out... The world will see me in my most vulnerable state... Yet, I also know that it will liberate me... I can be true when I'm there... Seeing me vulnerable the world would want to protect me... Cause it finally see the real me... And truly love me for who I really am...

To turn left or right... Walk on straight or stop in my tracks... I simply do not know what next... One thing is for sure though... I need to keep on moving... Keep my momentum up and carry on... Onwards, left or right... Choices I inevitably have to make... As long as I hold my pace... I can continue to ponder... Take my time to wonder... The decision is ultimately in my hands... Give or take it's up to me... Gritting my teeth and pressing on... I'm praying hard that everything is going to be A-OK... Whatever, whenever, whoever... When it comes, it comes... No matter how hard I try to hide...It will still come... I'll just have to face the facts and smile =) Let my guard down a little at a time... Soon it'll be time to embrace the world... Time to show my vulnerablity... Nothing will shield me then... Nothing will hide me then... I just have to stand up and be me... The other side of me...